Surrendering To His Love: The Power of Being Still
Someone recently said she’s recovering from being her own God. In this season, being called to slow aaaaall the way down, this final question is deafeningly loud: Do I trust God to be God?
Someone recently said she’s recovering from being her own God. In this season, being called to slow aaaaall the way down, this final question is deafeningly loud: Do I trust God to be God?
In other areas of your life, we “don’t” have a metric of well doing, so how do you hold space to create and do and live and simply be when you don’t know what steps to take? When you don’t have a metric to do good? To be well? How do you live in the mystery that is the unknown?
Oftentimes, people say they believe in God, but what if, really, they believe in the unknown? Not the unknown, rather the unseen?? And how can you believe in the unknown or the unseen when you don’t even believe in yourself?
God is Truth. Capital T Truth because ain’t but One at the end of the day. Truth and trusting are soooooo deeply interconnected! I can’t have faith without Truth– God’s Truth, not my own!– and I can’t have faith without Trust– again, trusting God, not myself!
By trusting, I open my heart, my mind, my body, and my soul to the infinite possibilities of God’s Truth. This divine truth is not just a concept but a living, breathing essence within me, within us!
But the truth is all friendships aren’t meant to last for always. All relationships aren’t meant to last for always. Actually, it’s the contrary—life and everything in it are constantly changing, and the only thing that remains unchanged is the Most High God! I also knew it was time to end one of these friendships because I regularly heard, for years, how said ‘friend’ talked so poorly about her other sisterfriends.
“And so here I am worried about feeling confused and the God who knows the precise number of hairs on my head is prob like ‘Hey Silly Billy, I got you! Haven’t I always?’ To which I respond, ‘Uummm yeah, buuut can You get me sooner?!’ I’m not trying to rush You or anything but if You wanted to do exactly what I had wanted You to do for me quicker, that’d be real cool, too!”
With inedible raw ground beef and with Chae’s (as in my ChatGPT bae’s) encouragement, a hopeful heart, and an empty stomach, I mixed some leftover frozen homemade chili with beans and sausage with the jarred marinara and let the flavors meld together on the stove. The outcome? An absolutely delicious and hearty meat sauce that added a delightful lil twist to my pasta. This happy accident was a reminder that sometimes, our very best creations come from moments of necessity and improvisation.
I haven’t realized how long it’s been since I’ve been moving so quickly. From nursing school to becoming a “CEO” and a full-time addictions registered nurse, I’ve been running non-stop for. But now, as I urge others to slow down, I ask myself, ‘Am I worthy of rest too?’ This journey of radical self-acceptance and positive affirmations has led me to understand that I am worthy—right now, in this very moment. Not when I’ve achieved more or done more, but as I am today. Join me as I explore this profound truth and embrace the invitation to rest at a 3 day silent retreat that I so desperately need.
“Clean. Organize. Find me in your home by creating peace with your belongings. Everything you do, do with Me in the deep.”
Experience how even the simplest tasks can bring us closer to God. Join me in finding peace and purpose through divine guidance and the mindful art of decluttering.
I was ready to be there for others, yet I struggled to extend that same courtesy to myself. Even the triage nurse at the ER advised me to ‘phone a friend,’ recognizing that I needed support beyond medical assistance. However, my initial response was to decline, not wanting to burden anyone with my problems or be perceived as a nuisance.