When Obedience Looks Like Quitting: Choosing Faith Over Fear
There’s soooo much to say but I haven’t had the space to say it.
The short of it? (HA! Brevity, I don’t really know her but let’s see how this goes, k?):
I resigned from my job. After 5 months. The environment was too small for me. Not in a “bad” way, but in a they’re tryna put me in a box and don’t they know I’m claustrophobic kinda way.
I made the bold choice. The courageous choice.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not be terrified or dismayed (intimidated), for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9 AMP which is also basically Deuteronomy 31:6
So when I made my pros and cons list of should I quit now or later– note: it wasn’t should I quit, but when should I quit!– the choice was clear. Make the bold choice.
And so I did.
And so it is.
I have 6 more b’ness days standing between me and my freedom.
And isn’t that what the God of All is all about?
So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.
Romans 12:2 MSG
So these breaks between blog posts? It’s because my work has been draining me.
Yes, I’ve been writing.
But I haven’t had the energy to post.
And that is… Humbling. Not being able to do the things I used to do with ease and flow and grace saddens my heart. Now that I’ve come to see again, I know what I must do next. What I get to do next.
And so, with that, I’ve made the “brave choice”, as some would say, to quit my job. To transform my world. To not settle.
But to be more. To be who God created me to be. To be who the Spirit wants me to be. To reflect ont he outside what the Spirit sees on the inside.
So my posts may be a little *click click* (I literally make a clicking sound with my tongue and teeth when I don’t have the words. Imagine you know how to do it or you’ve heard me do it. Just flow with me, friend!) for the next two weeks.
But know that I’m returning. That my pen is mighty and the Word is strong gand my heart is renewed and my spirit is quickened.
Interestingly, this verse from Romans in the Message translation answers the question my spiritual director asked me tonight:
him: How do you want the Holy Spirit to help you?
me: To quicken my obedience.
I’d say I did– weeee did!– a bang up job.
My Offering to the God of I AM
God of all that was, is and will be, God of all that wasn’t, isn’t, and won’t be, I thank You that I serve the God of I AM THAT I AM, and because You are, I am, too! Thank You for peace of mind and heart because I surrender all to You! My time, my attention, my will, my vision, my hopes, my dreams, my retirement planning. I surrender all to You knowing full well that when I lean on Your understanding and not my own, my life expands, my hope blossoms, and my mind, my body and my spirit are able to rest. And for that, I thank You. For that, I worship You. For that, I give you the greatest and the highest praise. Your will and mine be one, and may it be fun! Aaand so it is. It is already written. It is already done. As above, so below. As within, as without. Aaaamen!
So this is my invitation. If you want to read what it looks like for me to go from living caged in the DC Metro area to flying free in the world, stay tuned. Greater is here. More is coming. Stay tuned!
✨ If you’ve ever felt boxed in by a life too small, or wrestled with choosing faith over fear—I hope this blessed you. If you’re ready to live free and Spirit-led too, share this post with someone who’s on the edge of their own bold choice. Greater is already here. Let’s walk in it—together.
